I knew I had a problem with alcohol for years. Because no reason was ever strong enough to make me stop, and anything could be reasonable enough to drink more. I didn’t know how to get help, or even what kind of help I needed. Sometimes I would fall into months long benders, and my life always became a burden, this went on for a decade. When things got bad enough, I’d pull out all the stops to get myself back in control. I thought I could stop when I wanted to. After a while, life was manageable, and I’d start drinking again. In hindsight, I was only delaying the inevitable. It would always be too painful to be myself, only so much will-power could keep me from the liquid lure to escape neurotic thought.
Desperate to take care of my body and mind so I could break away, from the self-imposed prison of my tangled mind. I began to take steps towards finding help that could penetrate my walls of protection and start working with the person behind the masks, instead of letting my ego do all the talking.
Without any confidence in myself to find the way to a better version of myself, I was ready to let someone else lead the way. A doctor confirmed my sneaky suspicion that I was an alcoholic and without hesitation referred me to Jason Bowman, manager and creator of Addiction Solutions Victoria. After my first conversation with Jason, a humble, truthful person. I trusted the Rehab at Home program was my next step. I felt relief. I didn’t have to fix my problem alone anymore; Jason knew the way.
I began the Rehab at Home program during the COVID-19 social distancing restrictions. In a way this helped me avoid social situations in early recovery that can unravel progress. I completed the four-week program, speaking to Jason on the phone or skype daily. Together, we worked on topics that help cultivate my self-awareness and knowledge of the nature of addiction. Jason’s passionate style of counselling creates a light-hearted and supportive connection, so that I could be honest and see the reward of doing the work. Now I am 40 days sober and with absolute conviction, I know letting Jason and Addiction Solutions Victoria lead the way, is the most important thing I have ever done for myself. Because, I am not trying to escape my life anymore, I want to live it.
"ASV programs and services provide affordable, evidenced based drug and alcohol rehab options across Melbourne, Victoria. The core program is delivered in the persons home where they feel safe and their privacy is protected". - Jase Bowman - ASV CEO Drug and Alcohol Rehab, Melbourne 2020.